Wednesday, March 14, 2012

"Remind Me Who I Am"

Today my day started out just like any other day. My alarm went off at 7:15, I woke the kids, fed them, packed their lunches and got them off to school. Then I got some breakfast for myself and sat in my office to browse Facebook while I ate. (Because you know, life's too short not to multitask.) That's when my day changed.

A friend posted a music video. In itself, not unusual. I wouldn't say I know this friend particularly well, but I enjoy her posts just the same. It was a song called "Remind Me Who I am" by Jason Gray.

Mr. Gray sings about needing to be reminded who he is from time to time because of regret, loneliness and other such things. He sings about needing to be reminded that he belongs to God and that he's a beloved child of God.

"When my heart is like a stone
and I'm runnin' far from home
remind me who I am.
When I can't recieve Your love
afraid I'll never be enough
remind me who I am.
If I'm Your beloved
can You help me believe it?
Tell me once again who I am to You
who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You
That I belong to You."

I clicked on the video and every lyric I listened to got to me. (Especially the above second verse.)Music generally speaks to me louder than anything simply because it's a language I understand well. You name a situation, and I can probably come up with a song that fits it. Well, this time the song fit me perfectly.

God's timing is always perfect. He knows more about me than even my husband. He knows my hopes and dreams, my insecurities and failures, my thoughts, intentions and even the deepest desires of my heart. He can count the hairs on my head and the freckles on my nose.

This song was a good way of telling me that God is the perfect person to remind me of who He knows I am. And that I NEED to be reminded of that.

I've been mad at God for quite some time now. I've got several reasons, none of them good. Because of that fact my spiritual life sucks. I'm not saying that because of this song, that's all going to change. It's just not that simple, but this song has given me a new place to start praying. Obviously I've lost my way somehow and need to be guided back to the designated path.

I'm not writing this because I want you to feel sorry for me, or to get attention. I'm just sharing my thoughts in the hopes that maybe it speaks to someone else who needs what I need...

To be reminded who we are in Christ.

Here's the link to the video if you'd like to give it a listen. ; )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eKyY8zfjBMQ&ob=av2e